• Something I know about Living with Distress

    by  • December 11, 2015

    JANE, our indie film, and FIRE IN THE HEART, the current beautiful production, were both born out of my own struggle to live in a body that is highly activated by stress, distress, and remnants of trauma.  Like, well, pretty much everyone I know. This morning, waking up way too early, I did a...

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    by  • October 8, 2015

    As someone who is making a film, and watching films and television to orient, I had the weird discovery that the art form that I sometimes make fun of – television – was actually creating a healing environment for me, something that surprised me in a time of great upheaval.  It has brought me...

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    Courage can be an inside job

    by  • October 29, 2014

    When I was fifteen, I hitchhiked across country in winter, running away from something and towards nothing. I remember what it felt to be handcuffed and shoved into the back of a police car, picked up for being a runaway. I remember the strip search at Juvenile Hall and the invasion of my body,...

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    Leonard Cohen Saved My Life

    by  • May 3, 2014

    It’s Year Two of the journey we began to get JANE made.  I always heard people in film  say how long it had taken to get their dream to screen. Usually they were receiving awards so it was easy to dismiss them. They were, after all, now the lucky ones. When friends and colleagues...

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    When I was fifteen – the story of JANE

    by  • June 24, 2013

    When I was fifteen, I wrote poetry and had a best friend named Abbe. We were in love with this guy on a TV show and we actually embroidered a piece of burlap with yarn that said, “We love you,” and sent it to him. When I was fifteen, I got the part of...

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    Why I Say Yes to Paradox – my hopes for JANE’s audience

    by  • April 24, 2013

    What does it mean to make a movie that promotes  keeping a spark of wholeness even when we are shattered? What I want for my audience is two potent experiences. One,  they leave the theater with an increased capacity to notice that love heals. And that inside “love” there is a profound tenderness, an...

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    The Male Elephants Do Their Job

    by  • April 14, 2013

    There is an apocryphal story in the African wildlife community about male elephants.  Apparently, somewhere in Kenya there had been so much poorly planned culling that a group of young male elephants were left on their own,  doing a lot of damage. (Elephants are totally community oriented.  When humans try to lessen their numbers,...

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    Developing LEGS – what it takes to make an indie

    by  • April 1, 2013

    I don’t know if a whole lot of folks know what movie making is like at this stage  – development.  Partly it means developing a strong foundation: commissioning a business plan that will actually reflect the cost/benefit to your potential investors, getting your legal ducks in a row including a very detailed set of...

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    Crying in Public Places

    by  • March 22, 2013

    It started in the offices of Communication4Good, a Santa Cruz-based company that helps promote social action platforms. Sandy Skees and Irene Tsouprake sat and talked with me for an hour about how JANE might be part of a much bigger picture. They coined the phrase for us, “It’s a movie and a movement.”  Their...

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    Kicking the Big Guy in his Privates

    by  • January 30, 2013

    When someone is trying to attack me, I guess his “privates” are no longer private – they are aimed at harming me and now they are public. Director Mike Buffo, actress Brittney Buffo, my husband Dan and I went to a graduation for IMPACT Bay Area this weekend.  The idea of full force is...

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    The Trauma Body

    by  • January 28, 2013 • 5 Comments

    Every day, I get up and I sit with JANE. I am 58. She is 15. So, in truth, she is inside of me. I have what she needs to become 58. At 15, I would not have known for sure that there would be an adult who came to sit with me. Everyone...

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